One Day To Go

I am going for my first appointment with my consultant tonight at 7.30 and I am feeling really excited. I know it will be very hard once I start tomorrow but over the last couple of days (since I made the decision to do this) I have been thinking a lot about what success will actually mean to me. It will drastically change my life.

I think I am finally admitting to myself the massive impact my weight has on my life. Before, if you'd asked me I would have said it didn't affect me too much but now I have been thinking about it and I know it totally clouds my existance completely. I know it also has a big impact on people close to me and that is hardest to admit.

A little self-indulgent and everyone will say I shouldn't think too far ahead, but I wonder what it will be like when...

1. I can have a bath and not form a dam with my enormous bum when I let the water out
2. I only take up one seat on the bus and the unfortunate person who sits next to me doesn't have to cling on for dear life when we go round 'Death Corner'
3. I don't think every bit of laughter or sniggering I hear is about me
4. I actually go out to 'Town' with my boyfriend when I'm asked instead of leaving him to go on his own (although not sure if that will be seen as a bonus by my boyfriend!)
5. I can have a coffee outside at Costa Coffee (currently their outdoor seats do not accommodate my ample derriere and I get wedged about 4 inches off the seat)
6. I can wear trousers (I am currently confined to skirts as my legs resemble two giant sacks of King Edwards)

I am sure I will be adding to this list over time!

Anyway, I will taking some photos tonight to post so I will put them on here tomorrow.

Bye bye